I was dreading this.
Dreading sharing this post with you.
I’m not in love anymore.
I’m just not.
I’m looking elsewhere.
The relationship is over.
There it is.
Don’t even fix your face to attempt to judge me.
Things have changed.
We’ve been together a very long time.
Too long it seems.
There have been SO MANY ups and downs.
He’s helped me out a lot, it’s true.
It’s become a love/hate relationship.
He’s hard on me sometimes.
He comes and goes…I feel like I only see him for 25-30 minutes a day.
He’s very close with this chick Tanya…(I hate her!)
We just don’t get on like we used to.
We’re just not on the same page.
And worst of all. He never ever listens to me.
I say things like “Noooo I don’t want to.”
He says things like “Max out, push harder, dig deep.”
I want to lay on the floor and die…
He wants me to do spider pushups and tuck jumps.
I think the true deterioration of our relationship has come because….
And I’m embarrassed to say this….
We’ve resorted to physical violence.
I’m not in love with Shaun T anymore.
So, I’m gunna cheat on him….
The new guy is older, but he’s in great shape.
I feel like he’ll push me to be a better woman.
And that’s what I need in my life right now.
It’ll be another interracial relationship…
I’m cool with that.
Tony and I are going to have a beautiful time together….
I just know it.