…Or Mompreneur…. or my fave: Entrepremom

John and I recently had a come to Jesus meeting and made a huge decision: I’m going to be a stay at home mom….for good! (ish**)

Okay, well not just a stay at home mom, but a work at home mom. I’ll be building my business while raising my family….with no dreary 9 to 5, looming like a raincloud, in the near future.

It was our plan for me to return to work around the time Rohan turns one. I was all for it…until I saw what day care costs, what in-home sitters cost, coupled with my general anxiety about leaving the boy for someone else to care for, and our desire to expand the family….

And so an official WAHM is born!

Now, I’ve always wanted to be a WAHM, it’s always been our long term plan that I’d do that down the line, but having it happen so permanently and so SOON….made me have a mini freakout. (Sidebar: first I was freaking out about having to leave the boy, and then I was freaking out about staying home with him, LOL ya girl’s never unfreaked)

I guess in the back of my head since my being at home was just a temporary thing, I never really let myself get comfortable with or fully embrace the stay at home wife and mom title. It was never “real.”  It was just….”this thing I’m doing for a little while.” I had a whole mess of fears about fully trusting John to be the sole breadwinner. Worries about business, and just general worries about the permanent lifestyle shift.

I was reminded of a quote that said something like….

“Worrying is like doing visualizations for what you don’t want”

Ouch.

So, being an LOA junkie I had to decide quickly to cut out the worrying, and think of the awesomeness in the situation.

I get to work on building my business, do the projects I’ve been putting off, finish my lapsed masters degree all while guiltlessly staying home to raise my lil shark! (and work on making a sharklet).

That’s just a win!

I had to learn a quick lesson in trust. I’m trusting my husband to take great care of us, and trusting myself to let go of the reigns of one way of living/thinking, and truly push forward with a business that I was half-stepping with.

*GULP*

 Wish me luck!

Did you have any difficulty wrapping your head around changing roles in your life? Are you a wahm and loving it?

**clearly, if anything drastically changes in John’s situation we will re-evaluate, and I’ll hightail it back to corporate america if need be.