I miss my body, dammit.
There. I said it.
I miss my old body, and I’m fully aware that I’ll never have it back. It’s gone. *pours some liquor out*
Yes, I know I’m only a little bit post-baby, and I know I need to be patient, and I know all the “9 months to gain it, 9 months to lose it” advice… but… I’m annoyed with how my body looks. (I’ll spare you a rundown of my gripes. You’re welcome.) And I’m ready to fix it. I want to look and feel “right” again. And soon! I’m cleared to work out in just a couple more weeks and I cannot wait.
I kinda fear my first work out. I know that no matter how “light” I try to go with it, it’ll be the hardest my body’s worked in about a year. *GULP* I have to work out at home because the gym membership was one of the expenses slashed to save money so I could stay at home with Rohan.
So far I have kettleballs and a Jillian Michaels dvd, plus I have Jillian Michaels’ 30 day shred and Supreme 90 for after I’m back in the working out groove. I’ll be able to strap lil man on and do some power walking, and go for runs when John’s home to stay with Rohan. I also have a stationary bike (somewhere) for indoor cardio.
So…I’ve got the tools… Including this very cute 10lb weight:
As for the diet…I’m not touching that much. I’m eating the same way I was eating at 9 months preggo…and I like it. I’m ALWAYS ravenous and always thirsty, and always craving the worst junk. The one thing I am doing, is cutting out the juices I have been sipping and just sticking with water and milk. Otherwise no diet changes. I’m breastfeeding and need the calories. I figure once I get back in the exercise habit in a few months I will start to trade my crappy calories for healthy ones….but not yet.
I know that even after returning to exercise and eating well, I will not have the body I used to have, and I’m OK with that. (okay…i’m getting OK with that) However, I know that even with wider hips, mega boobs and different bodyfat distribution, I’ll FEEL right again once I get active and healthy. That’s what matters most.
Bonus: I get to buy lotsa new pants!!
Was it easy for you to return to exercising after your pregnancy? Did your appetite return to normal after you finished breastfeeding? Have any at-home workouts you’d suggest?