Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.

Ugh!

Reading the day 6 prompt made me immediately think of two things:

1. outliving my children
2. having to get me and my family out of a burning building (i’m kinda scared of fire)

I don’t want to expand on that…and honestly, I mean…do I even need to?  ::shudder::

Hopefully the day 7 prompt is something nice and fuzzy rainbow sunshine cuz I don’t like the dark ones.

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Hi lovelies!! It’s day 4 of the 30 Days of Truth challenge.

If you want to see the entries for previous days, just click HERE and you can scroll through em.

Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.

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Oh c’mon, you know me…Mrs Listy McGee with the goals every other day!

There are TONS of things I hope to do in this lifetime, I mean just check out my 30 before 30 or my bucket list!

BUT

The first thing that came to mind when I read today’s prompt was: KIDS.

And, believe it or not, I don’t mean the ones I am aching to start birthing.

It has always been my dream to adopt a child.  As I got older the dream got more specific.  When I learned that Black boys in America, especially older than toddler age, were the least adopted, I decided that’s the child I would adopt. 

 John wants three children, and I want to birth two, so when we adopt our son, we both get what we want!  I cannot wait to add to our family in this way, and I’m SO glad John is happily on board with this.  (Because this was a dealbreaker for me)

I recently learned more about fostering, and I think I’d like to do that as well once my children are older (maybe high school age?) so that the possible instability of the child coming in to our home and maybe leaving shortly thereafter wouldn’t be too much of a confusion for them.

I do hope I’d be able to foster a child for a long period of time though.  I hear such horror stories about foster situations and it makes me want to cry….ok ok..it does make me cry….  I wish I was a billionairess so I could take in fiftyeleven kids and give them a better home and chance at the future…::sigh::

What do you hope to do in your lifetime? Have you adopted or known families who have successfully? What about fostering? I want to learn more about that. Plz share!

 Hi lovelies!! It’s Day 4 of the 30 Days of Truth challenge.

If you want to see the entries for previous days, just click HERE and you can scroll through em.

Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
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I hereby forgive all my exes for being douchebo baggins. (that’s douchebag plus bilbo baggins)

You all sucked in your individual ways and I forgive you for not putting me first and not treating me as amazingly as I should’ve been treated.  I forgive you for being immature, insecure, selfish and rude.  I forgive you for being weak and not able to handle me.

I hope you all have grown and matured into much better men than the boys I once knew you to be.  I also thank you for showing me all the things I don’t want in a mate, so when I found “the one” I could recognize him.

What do you have to forgive someone for?

Hi lovelies!! It’s day 3 of the 30 Days of Truth challenge.

If you want to see DAY 1 or DAY 2 just click on em.
All days of truth can be found HERE.

Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

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Ugh!

I have to truly forgive myself for the path I took with my education.
I’ve journaled my “forgiveness” about this, but I still feel a way about the situation so I know I haven’t completely forgiven myself, but I’m working on it.
I took a hefty break in school.  I should’ve graduated in 2003, instead 2007 was my year.  I have not yet started grad school but if I’m lucky I’ll be able to start in 2011 and finish in 2014.

Ouch.

I’ll be 33 years old.


Ouch squared.

I need to forgive myself for the time lapse, and for not giving my undergrad studies the effort I could have.  (I bullshat school away instead of doing those silly things like…homework and attending class) I showed up for exams though!

I try to tell myself that this is just the path I was meant to take, and there’s nothing wrong with it….but…sometimes myself just isn’t hearin’ it.  I think once I’m in grad school and actually putting effort into my studies and am working towards something I care about, I’ll be able to forgive myself a little more. 

No regrets….right Tim Riggins?  (that’s a friday night lights reference, in case you’re wonderin)


Are you doing a 30 Day of Truth challenge? What do you have to forgive yourself for??