When I was pregnant with Rohan, the question everyone and their mama was asking me was: Are you going to breastfeed?
Now, it’s: Are you going to try a VBAC?
Why is everyone and their mama asking me this?
I didn’t know it was such a hot topic to be honest with you. I had not researched it one bit because, when I was pregnant with Rohan I assumed I’d be having a vaginal birth. Now, having had a cesarean I’ve got to consider how my next little munchkin is going to come into this world.
Right now, I’m leaning toward another c-section.
I can’t believe I’m even feeling/thinking this way. I was all “bradley method, hypnobabies, go as long as you can w/o drugs Dani” when preparing for Rohan’s birth…and now….I’m considering a planned surgery for babyh2.0.
I had a solid birth plan with Rohan and I was all prepared to give birth vaginally. When his heart kept going bazzurk with each contraction and him not being able to tolerate labor as I waited to go from 8 to 10 centimeters, I had no choice but to undergo surgery.
Can I just say, it was the worst, and I thought I was going to die. (Rohan’s Birth Story)
Seriously, an unplanned c-section is traumatizing. You have no time to prepare yourself, and after it’s all over with, you totally need time to…mourn. You mourn the loss of the beautiful vaginal birth you dreamed about, mourn getting to hold your baby close right as they make their transition from inside of you out into this huge crazy world, you mourn the loss of your power and control. It’s sad. And it’s hard.
So here I am, pregnant with BabyH2.0 after a cesarean.
Well, I’ve started researching VBACs and I see loads and loads of conflicting information. It’s nuts, man. I’ll find a site that seems legit, and sites legit sources saying that a VBAC is totally cool and safe….then I’ll find another site that’s legit, with legit sources linked and it’s saying VBACs are dangerous and risky.
Any mom veers AWAY from risk when it comes to her children, maybe even moreso for her unborn.
More compelling than what I’ve read is what I’ve heard from the labor & delivery nurses in my life and online life. I’m getting stories about moms dying, body parts rupturing, epidural issues and whatnot. Ugh! I don’t want to die bringing BabyH2.0 out here!
My mom had a successful VBAC back in 1995 when my big little brother was born but she claims it was worse recovering from that than her cesarean. (But she’s dramatic so I don’t know how serious she was about it.) I think I could deal with a crappy recovery experience if it meant I could have a successful VBAC.
In my research I found a few VBAC Risk Calculators…I put in my stats and I get my chance of successful VBAC as 50%. WTF?!
One of the questions is “Are you African American?” Of course I answered yes. Just for kicks I said no, and my chance of a successful VBAC jumped to 66%!
Damn. Sistas just can’t catch a break!! 🙂
Want to calculate your VBAC risk? https://mfmu.bsc.gwu.edu/PublicBSC/MFMU/VGBirthCalc/vagbirth.html
Right now another cesarean is feeling safer than trying for a VBAC, but maybe (read: hopefully?) I’ll find something that changes my mind. I was very attached to the thought of physically pushing my child out of me, and feeling the sensations (and sense of accomplishment) that comes from giving birth vaginally before. I’m glad I released that. Now I just care about what’s safest. If I can find more info that a VBAC is the safer route, I’m so doing that. … Unless the same thing that happens with Rohan happens again with BabyH2.0.