(I’m truly a moron, I thought I pressed publish to have this post yesterday evening!
Guess not. Here it is anyway!! 
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A week ago right now, I was on my hands and knees on a hospital bed, an oxygen mask strapped to my face, leaking lots of gross stuff, and stricken with fear like I’d never known. My mom and husband were right by my side, rubbing my back, feeding me ice chips, distracting me (well, trying to), trying to get questions answered by doctors, and mostly staring at the baby’s monitor to see how each contraction impacted him.
It was rough and scary.
Right now I am on my back in my cozy bed, my son to my left, my husband to my right, my mom in the kitchen making…something that smells good. I am swollen, tired, achey and happier than I’ve ever been, ever.
What a difference a week makes.
I LOVE being a mommy. I love everything about my beautiful baby boy. Every sound he makes is amazing. Every squishy facial expression is the best thing ever. I’m just so in love. It feels so natural caring for him and doing for him. In a weird way I just feel like we’ve known each other already, and he’s not brand new. And when we lock eyes and just stare at each other, it just melts me. He’s everything and I’m so lucky to have him.
Rohan’s a good baby so far. Not fussy at all. Cries a bit when he’s hungry and I don’t whip out the boob fast enough for him and is fussy on the changing table sometimes. (Had my first “bad mommy” experience on that changing table when I accidentally touched his newly circumcised peeny and made the poor child scream bloody murder. I felt like total crap.) He enjoys being swaddled and snuggled, and is so alert looking around, making great eye contact and the best faces ever. He’s a big eater, and sleeps well. Sadly he sleeps better in the day than at night but we’ll get that taken care of as he gets older. Pediatrician told us he’s totally healthy, Yay!
I’m learning his habits, and what his lil faces mean. like the “I’m about to drop a load” face, or the “you’ve got 2 seconds to pop that boob in my mouth or else” face. Rohan already has a new nickname, Sharkie, because of how he attacks the boob. My lil shark is milkthirsty so don’t stand in his way, you may get hurt!
I’m figuring out the best order to do things in and I’m sure we’ll get more efficient as time goes by. John and I have a good system worked out for the nighttime care. I go to bed early and he handles the 1 or 2am feeding/change while I sleep through to the 5am feeding/change. I take the 5am and on, and let John sleep in. During the day I try to grab a nap during one of Sharkie’s naptimes if I can. Being in pain and on bedrest this week made things harder than they will be when I’m all healed up.
This past week seemed to fly by and didn’t seem as taxing as I expected it to be. Let’s see if I eat my words now that my mom is leaving us to fend for ourselves and John’s returning to work full time starting this weekend. I may have to come back in another post and eat crow, but I’m putting it out there that I think it’ll probably not be so bad.
Cross your fingers for us!
What was your first week home with baby like? Any advice for brand new parents? And why didn’t any of you tell me how overwhelming and all encompassing these feelings of love were? My goodness!
Hi! I am glad you and baby are doing well! Isn’t it AMAZING how in love you can be with someone so fast. My first week home with my lil guy was a little rough. Mostly due to my bad labor experience. My BP shot up. I was diagnosed with Atrial Fribulation, had to be induced, anesthesiologist hit a nerve while giving me an epidural (worst pain ever!!!). My right leg was numbe for about a week. In addition to all of that, our 9 year old had pink eye and it just broke my heart that she couldn’t hold her little brother. She had to peak at him from the doorway
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Aaaawww, I just pictured a sad lil pink-eyed face peeping in with longing to hold her lil bro.
Breaks.Your.Heart.
What a beautiful post! Congrats again on becoming a mommy!
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One week already time is moving. It’s a feeling like no other enjoy it and make sure you take some time for yourself too.
I am so happy to read this! You sound so completely in love. I am sure that is the best feeling ever.
So glad that everything is going so smooth for all of you. Everything truly sounds like a wonderful dream!
Its so good hear ur updates! We delivered only a day apart! Mine was on 6/6 and I agree, I’m totally n love with my lil man! He was 6lb 2.6 oz and 20in! I have a ques..how is ur hubs doing night feedings? R u pumping breastmilk and using bottle or using BM and formula?
we supplemented with similac from the hospital but i am now pumping like crazy.
Glad you and the fam are doing great! Enjoy every moment of it, they grow up soooo fast. Make sure to keep the lights on during the day even when he is sleeping and out at bedtime. This helps then with coordinating their days and nights.
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What a wonderful update! So awesome that you have your mom there. My first week was pure hell as I didn’t have support/help and DH was working 2 jobs. I was up and running cooking and doing everything from day one. It really does make a difference when you have family there to help! After 8 weeks things normalized esp with breastfeeding and it’s been much more normalized since. Wishing you the best!
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I remember that first week home. It was hard, it was mainly me and Mr. C (no other help). But what I do remember that it was wonderful to actually call ourselves a family for the first time.
Take this time to get rest and enjoy the peaceful stage (well at least during the day time), as much as possible. Time will fly by.
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Congratulations. I am so happy for you. I wish you and your family many happy days to come. I was so nervous for you when I didn’t see any posts since “The End is Even Nearer”. I kept checking and refreshing like every 20 minutes, but thank God that everything went well and Mommy and baby are doing great. Good luck on your new journey.
Aww I had my ’1st week home’ just two weeks ago. Everything you described is how I feel with my sweet baby girl.
Let’s see: getting used to those every 2 hr feedings, the constant diaper changes (thankfully baby doesnt cry for dirty diapers), the adorable facial expressions and quick smiles.
Congrats again! Motherhood is definitely one of the best feelings in the world.
This is sooooooooo exciting…i can’t believe you are a mom now…it just seems surreal…i am happy the first week has been a breeze…can’t wait to hear more…and i love that you are soooooo in love…makes me smile!
What a wonderful feeling loving your baby. I am so happy for you!
My first week was hard as my husband at the time and I were young parents. Thank God for helpful moms (even though they lived in another city). But it got easier as we all got to understand each other better.
I’m late – congratulations! It does not sound like you had an easy delivery at all but your baby is gorgeous. All the best with the recovery from the c-section!
Congratulations on your new baby!! What a blessing! My first week home from having my babies I mainly breastfed and RESTED. My mom was always there for the first week, which was awesome. My advice would be to rest as much as you can to help your body heal properly.
The first week home with Moo was not bad at all. Because she slept all day, I was able to still get some stuff done. I invested in a Snugli so that I could carry her while I did the laundry and stuff.
Also, an important key to not getting overwhelmed is to take naps when he naps. Not having enough sleep will make you crazy and even more emotional than you already are. But it sounds like you all are doing well and getting into a routine that works well for you all.
And don’t be afraid to ask family and friends to come over to help out!
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you entry is full of serenity. that’s how it was for me during the first weeks as mummy. hubby was with me and it was just us three in our little heaven. enjoy each moment
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Congrats! Being a mother was my first true understanding of UNCONDITIONAL love. Get plenty of rest and let mom do her thing and pamper you. You WILL soon be sleep deprived but this too shall pass. Be blessed!
Sounds like you guys had a great system going. I remember taking turns feeding my nephew so my sister could sleep. So sweet your mom and John were there to support you for the first days. So smart of you to nap when Rohan naps, some women find this difficult to do. I’m incredibly happy for you!!!
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