I told you about scary tuesday. Well, turns out I had scary thursday, friday, saturday…. you get the picture. Doc put me on bedrest until today depending on what happens with the spotting and cramping. Waiting for her to call me back, but since both are still occurring I fear I may be seeing more of this comfy new bed than I planned.
I’m dealing with feelings of fear, anger, sadness, shame and disappointment and trying to combat them with feelings of hope and love but it’s hard. I feel trapped and ineffective, and anxious. Deep down, I am certain Embry is OK, and if I have to stay horizontal for 40million years to ensure his health that’s what I’ll gladly do, but the worry monster is on my back. My job situation is a big factor, I run a small office. I am set up to work from home but there’s a lot I need to do in person as well. A financial hit would not be good right now. I’m just hopeful that this ends very soon and I can get back to normal functioning.
How Far Along? 22 Weeks!!! 18 (ish) to go! (1/29/12)
Symptoms: I don’t wanna talk about it.
Total Weight Gain/Loss: Same 8lbs as last week.
Maternity Clothes: Same sitch. Still looking for a maternity coat.
Stretch Marks: Not yet, still fighting stretchmarks as best I can.
Sleep: Horrendous. Just horrendous.
Food Cravings: Peanut butter and jelly. Fake strawberry shortcake (take a slice of entenmanns all butter loaf, put sliced strawberries on it, cover with whip cream, shove it in your mouth, mmmmmm)
Best Moment This Week: ….I’ll get back to you on that. Might have been eating my fake strawberry shortcakes lol
Movement: Loads. This little guy is so active. John feels him a lot and they have little conversations. “Do you think the giants will win? Kick once for yes”
Labor Signs: ::sigh::
Belly Button In Or Out? Yeah, I need to just delete this question. You won’t be seeing this next week.
What I Miss: Ummm not bleeding and not cramping.
What I Am Looking Forward To: Doc saying no more bed.
Milestones: We can see Embry moving from the outside now. It’s sooo alienish. I love it.
Weekly Wisdom: It’s ok to take it easy without feeling guilty.
Any advice for me at this stage in pregnancy? Did you have to go on bedrest of any sort during your pregnancy?